Blue Gillespie - ACT VII: The Misanthropist

Whose is that voice I can hear in my head
Faces are fading uncertain what’s said
Is this the reward, the unblemished truth
The reason my manhood remained in its youth
Too late, not gonna change no more
No way I pissed away all of it
Fuck you, I’m who I’m meant to be
Too late not gonna change myself
No way, I pissed away all of it
Fuck you, I’m who I’m meant to be
Too late not gonna change myself
No way, I pissed away all of it

Listen to my, swollen cries now
See my cheeks so red and fierce
Clenched up fists around your wrists now
Drenched my lips in spit and tears
I will drain you, I will stain you
I will not be silence ‘till I die
I will blame you, I will maim you
I will be so trying ‘till I die
What a sight to see, now see me
What a thing to be, look in me
With the clarity of a crystal
Can I still be free of anger
I can hear him breath, he’s closer
Icy fingers on my shoulder
Time is nearly up, he’s on me
For the gift of life I borrowed

No way, I pissed away all of it
Fuck you, I’m who I’m meant to be
Too late, ain’t gonna change no more
No way, I pissed away all of my life

Got me plugged in you so easy
Hate it when you pull away
Get them out now, bitch appease me
Offer up now, I want more
I will pain you, I will blame you
I will not be silenced ‘till I die
I will stain you, I will drain you
I will be so trying till I die

Can’t remember her face
Angel fell away
But I remember her taste
Bitter sweet and pure
And I’ve always loved her
She calmed the beast inside
I let the only one go
Who ever made me smile

And so here where I lie
I’ll curl up and die
After living a lie
I’ll dry up and die

There’s a good reason to learn all this young
Maturity only comes to those ones
Who offer their power in making a change
To the world they fell into, fix fuck-ups we made
Too late, not gonna change no more
No way I pissed away all of it
Fuck you, I’m who I’m meant to be
Too late not gonna change myself
No way, I pissed away all of it
Fuck you, I’m who I’m meant to be
Too late, ain’t gonna change no more
No way, I pissed away all of my life
What a sight to see, now see me
What a thing to be, look in me
With the clarity of a crystal
Can I still be free of anger
I can hear him breath, he’s closer
Icy fingers on my shoulder
Time is nearly up, he’s on me
For the gift of life I borrowed

There’s a good reason to learn all this young
Maturity only comes to those ones
Who offer their power in making a change
To the world they fell into, fix fuck-ups we made