Courtney Love - Letter to god

Dear God, I'm writing this letter to you
Cause I don't have a clue
Can you help me?
Im sitting here, simply trying to figure out
What my lifes all about
Can you tell me?
I never wanted to be, the person you see
Can you tell me who I am?
I always wanted to die, but you kept me here alive
Can you tell me who I am?
I lie awake, conducting this symphony
That you have gifted to me
But, I cant ever sleep
Don't be mad, but I get weak inside
And I start to fall apart, because I feel nothing
I never wanted to be, some kind of comic relief
Please show me who I am
I've been tortured and scorned, since the day that I was born
But, I dont know who I am
And I thank you man for everything
Sorry I'm so frightened about all of it, but I wish I could give you more
And all the lights are shining down on me
And I feel intimidated by it all
I never wanted to be, the person you see
But, thank you
Oh God, please tell me now; are you disappointed or are you proud?
Haven't I done everything, everything?
I'm so sorry I'm so weak, and I turned into a freak
But, I don't know anything, anything
I've lost all self-esteem, my baby and everything
And I feel nothing, nothing
Oh God please tell me now, oh God please tell me now
Cause I feel nothing
Dear God, I'm writing this letter to you
I am coming unglued
Please help me